(Tuesday
11/27/12) It's so hot here. Hahaha. Immediately as I stepped off the plane I
started melting in my suit. The first day I got to Teresina, we all went to the
mission home and were taught about how to survive here. Hahaha. President Seidschlag
and his wife are so awesome! I feel like they're going to be great. I had
hardly eaten anything all morning long, so at about 3:00 pm President and
Sister Seidschlag took us all out to this buffet restaurant where I ate like a
king. I felt like I cleaned them out. We then just sat around the mission home
(it's more like an office type setting) until we were interviewed. The "Portuguese
24/7" thing is killing me. There's been some Brasilians here that speak
pretty good English, so they've helped out a lot. Oh, I forgot to tell you . .
. I went up with Elder R, Elder W, Elder A, Elder L and three other Brasilians.
Later that
night, we took our stuff to an apartment where we stayed that night. That night
was probably the hardest night since I've been in Brasil. I was covered in sweat
and felt so nasty, we had one little ceiling fan that hardly worked, there were
ten of us in a room, about the size of our living room, on bunk beds. And then
six others that actually live there slept in different rooms. The place was so
nasty and packed, but I guess I'll have to get used to it. We never got dinner
(I think because of the big lunch) so I munched on some Doritos that you gave
me (thank you so much). I definitely cried that night to myself and said,
"What am I doing here?" I prayed really long and hard for strength
and some sort of hope to get through this. I really started having doubts and
regretting my decision to go on a mission. I really hate to say that, but
that's what was going through my head that night. That day was not good to me
at all.
(Wednesday
11/28/12) I definitely think my prayers were answered because the next day was
a lot better. We were at the church all day learning about the specifics about
being a missionary, our credit card, baptismal goals, schedule, teaching
techniques, stuff like that. We also got our companion and area. My companions
name is Elder O. He's from Sao Paulo and has super dark skin - haha. He's been
out for a year and eight months. He seems like such a cool guy, but he speaks
way crazy fast so I have him repeat almost everything he says or I just nod my
head and pretend like I know what he's saying. I haven't had/ to do that a lot though.
I'm going to Sobral which is right next to the boundary of the Fortaleza
Mission (to the east). I was told it can get a little windy there, which is
awesome. I also heard that it's a fairly well rounded area. What that exactly
means, I have no idea. We were at the church from about 9 am until 7 pm. It was
lots and lots of Portuguese-only. After that we went to President and Sister
Seidschlag's place to eat. They literally live in this penthouse in a
skyscraper apartment thing. It's so nice and they had maids working for them.
That was such a glorious dinner. I slept a lot better that night.
(Thursday
11/29/12) I've been writing all of this on the six hour bus ride to Sobral.
This morning has been a little rough on me. I said goodbye to the last
Americans I know and I'm pretty much throwing away English for the next couple
months. It's been so so so hard to communicate with my companion because I know
what I want to say in English, but I'm having to baby down my sentences just to
get my point across. As we were sitting at the bus station, waiting for the
bus, I started thinking about stuff and all of a sudden I started to ball my
eyes out. My companion asked if I missed my family and all I could do was nod
my head. I kept saying, "It's so hard, it's so hard." He put his arm
around me and said that everything is going to be okay. I immediately stopped
crying, shook it off, grabbed my things, and followed him onto the bus.
I'm now in
Sobral and it's Monday, December 3rd. I haven't had any time to write because
I've been so busy. Things are definitely a lot better now. But seriously
though, I can't describe it on paper and I did a crappy job at trying, but I
was a mess those first couple of days after I left the CTM. Mentally, physically,
and spiritually drained. I think once I got settled in, things started to roll.
My companion has been a life-saver. I'm living in a "descent"
apartment with amazing elders. The people here are amazing, the members have
been so loving, and the Portuguese is coming a little better.
The first
morning I woke up here, I woke up to what sounded like screaming children (I
kid you not). It turns out they have a pig and goat/lamb auction thing right
outside our window. They're all still alive and they know where they are going
and so they scream bloody-murder. It's such a weird thing. I guess they do this
almost every morning, but it's only happened three (I've lost count - hahaha)
times since I've been here.
Also on the
first day, I got to go to the ghetto of Sobral. It was seriously probably one
of the most humbling things I've seen. I felt embarrassed to be an American and
about the things I complain about. We went to go meet the Bishop there, to have
lunch at his place. They're probably one of the nicest families I've met and
they made us a huge lunch that was so good.
Every day
here we've had lunch at a members house and they've fed us well. I don't eat
dinner until I get back at 9:00 pm which kinda sucks, but whatever.
It's amazing
how accepting the people are here. You can almost go up to anyone, talk to them
for a little, and then ask if you can come by some other time and they'll
almost always accept. This first week, we've only met members and done street
contacts. We haven't taught any lessons yet.
Ah! If you
can find it (I'm pretty sure you can on Youtube), look up "The Atonement:
How It Applies To Missionary Work". That stuff gets me going . . . To me,
I think this is the best thing the church has put out. Actually, I don't think
the church made it. It might have been a member. It has President Eyring and Elder
Holland speaking in it. It's got piano music in it if that helps at all. It's such
an inspiring video non-the-less. (Here is the address: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I6FKiNVbw3Y)
So some
basics about how I'm staying alive . . . haha. Each morning for breakfast I
have oatmeal with cut up bananas and apples along with some bread. I thought I
was super awesome for eating healthy, but it's starting to get really old. I
think I'll need to change it up real soon here. And about the piece of bread .
. . I've been eating hamburger buns. Why? Because that's what missionaries do!
And plus I can. Hahaha. For lunch we've always eaten at a members place.
Nothing too crazy yet. Always rice and beans along with possibly spaghetti
noodles, lasagna, some sort of meat, and soda haha. For dinner, we don't eat
until 9 when we get back. It's usually just been snackyish foods or something
really easy to make like top ramen.
The language
is going okay. I can communicate with my companion fairly well, but with other
people it's a little tricky. My companion knows how I speak so he can
understand. With other people, some things don't make sense because of the way
I say it. The hardest thing of all is understanding . I'm having the hardest
time understanding people. During a lesson I can follow along fairly well
because it's gospel material, but most things outside of that, I'm lost. There
have been many lessons where all I've done is bare my testimony at the end. One
of the other elders I'm living with said that a super great way to speak is to
literally drop all English, especially with studying. I should only use my English
books if I can't figure out what it's saying. Another good thing he said to do
was to read the Book of Mormon in Portuguese out loud.
About
washing my clothes, we've got a washer here to ourselves. But we don't have a
dryer . . . so we have to hand dry everything. It's actually not too bad, just
a little time consuming because the washer takes about three hours to do its
thing, and then hand drying takes another good couple of hours.
THE TAN
LINES ARE BEGINNING TO FORM!!!!!! I've got a descent watch tan line now and I
know it's only going to get worse hahaha. It gets sooo hot here, but the super
amazing part is that there's wind here in Sobral. There's almost always a nice
little breeze, which saves me from the heat. But really . . . it's hot here.
I'm not sure
if I made this clear, but I'm living with three other guys. My companion and
another companionship. The other elders are Elder B and Elder A. They're both
Brasilian, but Elder B looks like he's American. They're both so amazing,
pretty clean, very organized, and on top of things. I think the messiest one is
my companion, but it's not even that bad.
So I'm
working on a package to send to you guys for Christmas, But I know you won't
get it in time, so please be looking for that! I haven't sent it yet because
I'm still trying to figure things out and make it. It won't be much, but I'll
do my best :).
After the
first four days, we started walking A LOT! Each night when we would come home,
I would be absolutely disgusting, covered in sweat and feeling so sticky and
everything would hurt. I would shower, eat a little, write in my journal, and
as soon as my head would hit the pillow, I'd be out. I remember one night as I
was laying on my bed, about to go to sleep, I was saying to myself "OH MY
GOSH! THIS BED FEELS SOOOO GOOD!" even though it's probably the crappiest
bed. Hahaha.
As a
missionary, I'm starting to appreciate some of the simplest things. One time a
member gave us some ice cream. I lit up like a Christmas tree because it was so
hot and it was the most perfect thing at that moment.
I love you
so much!!!!!!
Elder Steed